realizations

Today I looked out the window at school and thought that it looked like a college brochure that you would recieve in the mail. And I realized, once again, that I am indeed a student at the Moody Bible Institute. The reason that it looks like a college brochure is that it is college. Later on, as I was walking down the street to work I realized that I am 21, no longer a child in any sense. I realize things like this a lot.: I am actually preparing for ministry; doing what I have always wanted to do. How did I get here?

Realizations like this are very good for me. They make me think about who I am and what I value. In 1st Corinthians Paul talks about how as he became a man he put away his childish ways of thinking. His conclusion is that we ought to persue love. Not a childlike, selfish and selfsatisfying love, but a love that is what he descibes in the first half of the chapter. I have been thinking of this chapter and what Paul urges us to do in relation to the surrounding context (yeah: herminutics!) and how much that applies to what I am encountering here at Moody. The question of spiritual gifts and what has ceased is a topic that will never die. But here Paul is telling us to view the whole situation with mature, unselfish, and loving reasoning. I really don't know where I stand on this issue right now, but I am thinking about it more that I used to.

Another realization that I had was that I so often live on past learning. I don't know how to really explain, but often I will learn something really great or have a good conversation, and then for the next few days I feel like I can just ride that wave till I crash. the problem here is that I do crash. I realized that this is because I give myself 'time-off' and let my spirit become drained. In Revelations Jesus confronts the church at Sardis for living on a name that is alive while they remain dead. I do that to. Jesus calls the church to WAKE UP!! and I need to do that every day, every moment. Wake up Kjieri! stop living on your past glories and live for me today.

I like realizations... they are good for me.